Two Pink Lines

I found out I was pregnant in November of 2017. I was still in nursing school, had just finished my clinical hours right before Thanksgiving Break. We went to dinner that night to celebrate my last clinical ever. I had one margarita, ate dinner, and went home. That next day I had felt off, and I knew that just one margarita wouldn’t make me feel hung over. I was nauseated and just drained. I took a trip to Target and literally everything baby was popping out at me. I hadn’t even missed my period yet… I had this weird instinct that I needed to take a pregnancy test. That evening I did, and sure enough the faintest second line showed up. I quickly texted my bestfriend Taelor and asked her if I should take another, her reply, “yes”. I ran to the store to buy one more package. Two faintly positive pregnancy tests. I was pregnant. This was a huge surprise, as we were not planning, obviously we weren’t being super cautious either. 

I remember feeling so many emotions that night. I was excited and scared half to death. Like I mentioned above I was just about to finish nursing school. I had a plan for all these things related to my career and it was all about to change. I was excited because deep deep way down I’ve always wanted a babe; I’d just feared bringing a child in todays world and that had stopped my want from happening. I was scared because it was all new, of course all the questions of; will I be a good mom, will I have the patience, and what will my parenting style be…? 

I told Torrey that night and he was very shocked. We spent the next day driving to Las Vegas for Thanksgiving just in shock and in awe of what our future would be like. I reflect back on that drive and it makes me giggle of how nervous we were about our future. 

Boris Pasternak once said, “Surprise is the greatest gift which life can grant us”. I can’t agree more with this quote. 

Aiesha